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[Nov. 9th, 2009|07:19 pm] |
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Tv shows: Lost, The Office
Movies: The Rocky horror picture show, Hercules , Down with love, The shining
Singer: Robbie Williams
  
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[Nov. 8th, 2009|03:12 pm] |
its really hard to stay positive when things come crashing down i cant register for classes because i have a hold. need $2,212 which i dont have. financial aid and loans didnt cover. i need to pull a private loan out but i dont have enough credit, so i needed a cosigner. mom asked older sis if she could. it doesnt mean SHES paying for it.it just means later on if i dont pay it on time it affects her. mom has bad credit she has to pay for everything for us.. sister screamed fight last night. i want to shut my eyes and ears. i cant listen and stay here anymore. i am not broken but iam broken hearted. sister screaming she does not want to hear my mom s problems. she is living her own life she will not help. i get that she is paying her own bills. its just the attitude where is family. i am devastated that there is no family here. it makes no sense. where is humanity and selflessness. my mom is hurting. she gives up everything for us. my mom was at tears this morning. she doesnt understand why i dont understand why. i want a family and i dont want to hurt its really hard to not regress to the usual comfortable hiding and darkness. i am trying really hard. i want family. am i ugly because of my family? when i grow up will someone love me and want to marry me. am i ugly? i want it more than anything else |
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|11:59 pm] |
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I just got home from the Denver concert and Regina was INCREDIBLE (of course) despite quite a few jackasses in the audience. There was this guy right next to me who must have been on ecstasy or SOMETHING yelling, and juuuust as I was about to tell him to shut it, Regina stops dead in the middle of "Blue Lips" and says "Shut the fuck up" then picked right back up right where she left off, just like nothing had happened. And he DID, thank god. Love her. <3 |
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[Nov. 7th, 2009|03:56 pm] |
Regina performing Eet on Craig Ferguson's show from last night
this song is growing on me :) |
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| when the world to you seems pitiful, i want you to know to me you're beautiful.. :) |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:45 pm] |
i feel really, really good. Like i have slowly woken up or something. I am happy, and not just a state of mania and then down again. Not a rollercoaster. i look around me and i love this world Winter is just a season and today's friday and my eyes are brown. it's all relative, and nothing more I am running everyday to make sure the restlessness doesnt come crawling back to me. i feel calm, and for once- I am right where I belong. and i know that this isn't just a phase. this isn't just a really good day. because realistically i know im gonna have bad annoyed frustrating days. cause thats normal its just my mindset. i feel like i have shaken off spiderwebs quicksand and licorice. i feel like i have slowly come around. this is it, its all lead to this. and i know that is why i am going to be fine this winter...first time i wont be dating and depending on a boyfriend. its all for me and i am happy that i know i can do this. and my journal entries are going to be normal..there wont be patterns in the upcoming months. its just the day. and for once...i realize- ACTUALLY realize that i am not alone. that i was never alone. that i will never be alone. people love me and care about me. i know iv heard it a million times. but now i can see that. i feel it.
i am beautiful and i vow to never cut again. i am loved and i vow i will love myself, not pretend.
i am alive and i vow i will live free. i am happy and i vow to be golden. i am awake and i vow not to forget. i am beautiful and i vow i will never, EVER let those dark ugly thoughts get inside of me. inside my head. it is mine. i vow tonight to make a stand. |
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| she's sneaky and smoked out.. it's starting to show |
[Nov. 6th, 2009|11:55 am] |
so i realized why im probably sleeping in alot more and not wanting to get up. my roomate bought curtains and shuts the blinds and draws them out at night, so in the morning theres no sun shining in. its dark in the room even though its so bright out at 9:30 anyywaays i decided to skip my first class and sleep. got up showered and studied more and went to religions, when igot there i realized i didnt bring my 15 pg journal with me which was still sitting on my desk. so luckily of all days i actuallyd ecided to wear my asics and sweatpants. LUCKY for me. haha. i sprinted back to my dorm and back to class, only 7minutes late or so. took the test, killed it woooop! it worked out great. and my mom texted running late so i actually have time to sit down and eat lunch before leaving for th e weekend. then sarah blasted 90's music for me because i was in such a good mood. shes such a sweetie im so happy we're living together :].
i want nothing else =) |
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| Regina scheduled on the Craig Ferguson show Fri, Nov. 6th |
[Nov. 5th, 2009|11:36 pm] |
It is possible her segment may get bumped to another day, but Regina is scheduled to be on The Late Late Show with Craig Ferguson tomorrow night. Not sure if there will be an interview or not...she may just be the musical guest.
12:35am/11:35pm Central on CBS (airs after David Letterman)
Friday, November 6
Ewan McGregor
Regina Spektor
www.cbs.com/late_night/late_late_show/ |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|11:32 pm] |
fooocus....need to focus for this religions exam tomorw....can't wait for this week to be OVER! im happy things are fixed now with kevin. we're gonna be friends again :)
been in the study lounge for the last couple hours. what an interesting night...frat pledges being silly boys but very entertaining and drinking i had to talk a drunk guy out of punching one of the boys. psycho frank gahhhh i love my friends here. so funny |
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| Austin TX show next week 11/11 |
[Nov. 5th, 2009|06:58 pm] |
Hey Everyone, I have my tickets, but my best friend didn't get hers. Does anyone know of 2 tickets available for the Austin TX show next week, on 11/11? Please let me know if you do! Thanks,
Haylan. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|06:32 pm] |
67 Icons Tv Shows: LOST, The Big Bang theory, How I met your mother Movies: Hercules, Lilo&Stitch, The Lion King, Alice in wonderland(2010)    PUBLIC 2 DAYS. HERE @ WONTDOTHAT |
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[Nov. 5th, 2009|06:04 pm] |
67 Icons
Tv Shows: LOST, The Big Bang theory, How I met your mother
Movies: Hercules, Lilo&Stitch, The Lion King, Alice in wonderland(2010)
  
PUBLIC 2 DAYS.
HERE @ WONTDOTHAT
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| Disney stars up for nomination |
[Nov. 5th, 2009|09:49 am] |
Stars like Selena Gomez, Vanessa Hudgens, The Jonas Brothers, Ashley Tisdale, Miley Cyrus, Zac Efron, Demi Lovato, Ashley Leggat, Emily Osment, Micahel Seater, Alyson Stoner, Mitchel Musso and more are up for nomination at Portrait Magazine. Their annual Top 30 stars Under 30 years old is up this November. I'm voting for Aly and AJ. Who's your favorite on the Disney star on the list?
Poll closes on November 22nd. Spread the word for your favorite star!
http://www.portraitmagazine.net/
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[Nov. 4th, 2009|09:37 pm] |
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i broke up with kevin and i dont know why
its too late to get him back hopefully we'll still be friends after this but i dont know.he taught me alot about myself, so i know we were supposed to have known each other. and its better than always wondering what could have been some guy already bought me lunch and is trying to make a move i think. i kinda just want kevin back..but everything happens for a reason and live with no regrets college things. cant wait for TG break |
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